vixen's submissive journal

submission, daily life, and life's reflections

Monthly Archives: November, 2013

A submissive’s Daily Reflections

i am very depressed.  i am still in shock.  i just want to cry.  i don’t understand why this is happening.  Was i too open and honest?   i just tried to be the best submissive i could be for Master.  All i wanted was to make him happy, to please him, to serve him. …

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Heartbroken, a letter to Master

Each day i write what i am grateful for.  It is very hard to see what i am grateful for when i am heartbroken.  Master that i adore with all my heart i can’t believe you left me. You say you are not a good dom for me because you can’t give me the time. …

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A submissive’s Daily Reflections – Day 32

Today was Thanksgiving.  It will sound weird but as thankful as i am about everything i avoid Thanksgiving celebrations like the plague.  Why?  The past.  i come from a dysfunctional family to start with.  I never had a good Thanksgiving when i was a child that i can remember.  It seemed to be a day …

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A submissive’s Daily Reflections – Day 31

The night before Thanksgiving and all through the house, the dogs were sleeping and i was working quiet as a mouse.  Working all day in my office again, hoping to finish before Christmas begins!    Working on my website, filling orders too, ordering items for the new site, probably until two.  Life keeps me busy, …

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A submissive’s Daily Reflections – Day 30

It is late, and i have worked since i woke up this morning.  Everything that could go wrong has gone wrong today, a case of Murphy’s Law,  which made a very frustrating and long day.  But at the end of the day, i know it has just been one of those days and we all …

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A submissive’s Daily Reflections – Day 29

Another long day here with the new business.  Just when i think i am a few steps ahead i take a couple steps back.  Delays that can not be helped and this is where i have to remember to be patient.  As Master would tell me “Hang in there vixen.”  i can’t find enough hours …

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A submissive’s Daily Reflections Day 28

i have been working most of the day on my new business.  A new business when you are a sole proprietor takes dedication, hard work, endurance and determination.  i didn’t realize it was so late already.  i am nowhere finished for the day but taking a break to write in my journal. 1)  Today i …

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A submissive’s Daily Reflections – Day 27

Just about to go to sleep and i remembered i have not wrote this in my journal yet.  So quickly i will write the five things i am grateful for today. 1)  Today i am grateful that my dog’s eye looks much better today than yesterday. 2)  Today i am grateful for advice from Master …

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Warning Signs Of A Fake Dominant

Originally posted on thekinkyworldofvile:
Those who enter the world of BDSM are really clueless , the first is the chat rooms which are really polluted , and most of the time is spent arguing over who is real and who is not. Private messages telling one to strip and kneel, or the hours of phone…

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Versatile Blogger Award – Me?

i was awarded the Versatile Blogger Award by  http://embracingsubmission.wordpress.com/  .  Thank you, it was completely unexpected.   Now i am suppose to tell you seven things about me.  1)  i am always looking for the positive in everything.  Every cloud has that silver lining.  Sometimes we just have to look for it. 2)  i am …

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A submissive’s Daily Reflections – Day 26

This has been a long day.  It started out bad but ended on a good note.   1)  Today i am grateful for a wonderful caring veterinarian.  2)  Today i am grateful for having the income to cover that veterinarian bill.  It was worth every penny. 3)  Today i am grateful that i was able …

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A submissive’s Daily Reflections – Day 25

Grateful, thankful, appreciative, pleased, give thanks, gratitude, no matter how it is said i am grateful each day.  At the end of each day i take a few moments to reflect back on the day, and why i am grateful.  One could look back on their day and reflect on the negative, or the positive. …

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Master Song- Leonard Cohen

The Master Song by Leonard Cohen, on you tube. It shows the lyrics on the screen. For you Master, You introduced me to this song, This song has such meaning. i have listened to it so many times. Reading the words each time, and every time i think i have it figured out, i don’t. …

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A submissive’s Daily Reflections – Day 24

Today has been a learning day for me.  It seems that no matter how much knowledge a person has,  there is always more to learn and an opportunity to grow.  in all of this, i feel the need to learn patience.  i am trying.  Reflecting back on this day, i have things that i am …

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A submissive’s Daily Reflections – Day 23

At the end of the day i am reflecting on what i am grateful for today. 1)  Today i am grateful for Master. 2)  Today i am grateful for tech help. 3)  Today i am grateful that i am never bored. 4)  Today i am grateful for this productive day. 5)  Today i am grateful …

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